Am I experiencing...

MID LIFE CRISIS.

I had a chat with Rayshma yesterday. I told her I was considering going on a camping trip and rough it up, spice it up a bit, live life on the edge (yeah right, where did I think I was going to Jurassic Park?). No I said something along the lines of experience nature, be a little adventurous! And the lady wanted to know what was wrong with me! M wanted to know too.. lets go camping he said.. but lets first rent one of those bus like RV's and bring the conveniences of home with us! Yes I have finally decided to call him M in an unimaginative way, DH is too tacky for me.. hubby dearest? really? Geek does not suit him well enough and Cheeky's dad gives him an identity crisis... Koff was a good option, but would throw everyone a curve ball if they were encountering it for the first time.. so I decided to stick with M.
Anyway, I am digressing.. so back to Rayshma's question. Whats with me? I have been thinking too.. what is it? Mid life crisis?

You bet Rayshma wanted to know "how do you know u've reached the middle of your life?"
My response ...
"When you go berserk and want to give up all that you worked for and believed in you are in the middle of something!!

wanting to run away counts too :P"

I had a mid life crisis when I was 15, my mom called it the teens .. whatever potato, potaato.. same thing! But then I thought being 30 was end of the world.. who would want to be that Olddd... I asked.. so then 15 was mid life for me! And I had some of the biggest crisis of my life alright..
Deciding what to wear, every morning I would empty the contents of my wardrobe on my floor and dive in...
A clean room.. as long as the rodents don't invade, my room is clean.. My mom of course did not agree and had a fit every time she walked in..
Privacy .. huge signs on the door asking my parents to keep away proclaiming DANGER.. right like that would stop them!

Look I am digressing again... Back to my current mid-life crisis (lets talk about the bygone times later, shall we?) ...
(pict courtesy: www.musicalhome.com)
1. Every time someone suggests going back to work I get that glassy eyed far away look and start hyper ventilating! (Refer previous post - When I grow up!)
2. I have forgotten the geeky me, and am trying to pretend to be cool! (refer next post .. coming soon!)

3. When the doctor asked me "Do you eat a lot of chocolate", I sucked in my tummy and asked her "Do I look like I do?"

4. I am so scatter brained I keep running off track and digressing from the current topic at hand!
5. I clean up my house like my life depended on it!
6. When people need advice they call me.. be it about raising kids or what rug to use in the living room, or running away {wink, now we know where that one came from}. No one has still asked me about recipes, when that happens I know I am over the hill!

7. And when the doctor told me "you know when you near the 3 O ...", I asked her "How did you know?".. "Its right there" she said pointing to the ominous computer screen with my name on it... I ran out with a pained expression on my face!
8. I want to invite everyone home and feed them. "Oh your husband is going out of town, come here". "Oh you don't have plans for the weekend, come let me make dinner". Really whats with that? I need to get a life!

9. I want to buy roller skates (In mid life crisis terms - the convertible). Cheeky has acquired one, and now I want one too!
10. {edited to add} I have stopped crying for all the sentimental scenes in the movies. M recently noticed this... I have become worldly wise!
11. I spend way too much time thinking about myself and my crisis

So while I go mope around.. have fun with your non-crisis life's!! And just a bit of advice to all of you out there from M "Don't take the silly momma too seriously"

By the way here is what Wikipedia has to say about mid-life crisis
"Individuals experiencing a mid-life crisis have some of these feelings:

• search of an undefined dream or goal
• a deep sense of remorse for goals not accomplished
• desire to achieve a feeling of youthfulness
• need to spend more time alone or with certain peers"

Boohoo... I am going to go and lament a bit more to anyone that will hear!